Keep checking back to this post for time updates during this evening…
Time: 1744 – Miss and I have been working today and it will culminate in meeting with Master this evening. Master has arrived at the hotel and Miss will be joining him soon.
I have been advised that I shall play no part this evening and am unlikely to hear anything via text either. I have been told this is punishment. When I asked Miss what the punishment was for she said “remember all those times you mocked me by telling me you could do anything as I never punished you”…….”well I am going to meet your Master and intend on having a good time…you shall play no part.”
This has had the effect. I am crestfallen, anxious and am having those cuck pangs of jealousy. I hate it but love it. I do however adore Miss Cuckween for being such a bitch…and find my clit stirring . I am excited. My mind is tortured in exquisite pain and pleasure.
I may not have any news until tomorrow at some stage….but I will keep you all posted….even if to report a “no news” item during this evening. Keep checking back to this post for time updates x
1856 – Master is picking Mistress up at 8pm. They are going into Manchester for the evening x
2114 – no news x
2215 – Master has texted to say all is going well. I replied that ‘good…she’s lovely isn’t she’. No response.
2340 – having a difficult time now…the usual cuck feelings of insecurity, anxiety, nausea and wondering what the fuck is going on. I am also thinking it’s all been an amazing mind fuck and Master is at his home and Miss is just out with girls. Either way I guess it’s working lol. Lack of contact is hurting and sort of creating an anti-climax. After all real opportunities to rub ones nose in it. I guess it’s like that point in a marathon where runners hit ‘the wall’. I have hit the wall at this time. Clocks go back tonite of course. I’m in for a long nite x.
0028 – well I’ve managed to get thru the wall….that was tough…ones own mind is a terrible weapon sometimes lol. Still no news. The excitement and thrill of the past week and early evening has waned now which is a shame. My exclusion was a punishment…it worked thats for sure lol. Disappointment kicks in now which is a shame. Anyway, now the mind has relaxed its time for bed. If there is any news I will update you all tomorrow. Sweet dreams….oh and don’t forget to put your clocks back! X
Morning update…it was all a mind fuck. My period during ‘the wall’ got me to suss out the mind fuck. It all slotted into place. Shame as I would have loved Mistress and Master to have met up and it all been for real. Disappointed really. Plus I lost out on spending a nice evening with my Mistress. Never mind….x
Until next time….if there is one…x